Eyes With Fire Will See Light Everywhere

For a quite some time I am thinking on a challenge which will make me suffer, cry, laugh and cherish the journey after it has been done. I kept on searching for it and finally ended up with Running in a FULL MARATHON (26 miles or 42 kms). Though I have had already ran in two half marathons but never done one full marathon. Is Marathon so difficult? Of course it is :) . Imagine running for almost 4 to 5 hours continuously with one being completely fucked up. It demands all of you –commitment, endurance and focus. It is not a physical activity it is purely and completely a mind thing. Some even say to know who you really are “RUN in a MARATHON.” So whatever it is. I have decided to run in a marathon. Target is AUROVILLE MARATHON in Pondicherry coming February. PS: We have legs for a reason. May be running is the reason for it :P

Almost around 10 days back when I went to my Equitation academy the manager at the academy asked me whether I can take the horse for ride independently. I said “Yes” hesitatingly and that is evident in my body language. They called for KESARI (the horse which is so friendly for the all the students). That relieved my pressure for some extent. I mounted the horse and started trotting. She took the speed and started going on her own irrespective of my directions and not even considering that a rider is on her back. She was going into the places where there were pot holes and then did not even change the directions when it was going under long tree weeds, I had to adjust my posture accordingly, then at one time she started going to hit a fence, I somehow managed to change her direction and then she found grass and she started eating it. I tried to pull her with all my efforts but could not able to even move a slight inch. I felt like all my past 10 months of body building was waste. I t...

When there is nobody at my house except myself especially during the time between late evening and night, I will switch off the lights inside and outside my house, open the windows slightly to get the minimal amount of light from the surroundings and lay off on the bed and try to feel the tranquility consciously surrounding me. Yesterday was one such kind of evening. My cousin left to stay in his brother’s house, my neighbor had not arrived to house yet, my owner did not switch on his TV, the kids of the neighborhood were not playing on the streets, the guy who plays flute in the apartment in front of our building is also silent, weather outside was cool, no vegetable vendors on the street, no babies were crying; it is as though the entire neighborhood was pondering or tied of routine work and were sitting ideally. There is no voice or noise anywhere where my ear can identify or can reach it. Whatever sounds (droplets of water coming out of the tap, cool breeze coming due to slight...

Unconsciously Unskilled to Consciously Unskilled to Consciously Skilled to Unconsciously Skilled

After reading a Neuro science book “EVOLVE UR BRAIN” –which talks about the science of changing your mind? (The author primarily describes how the brain works, store information and why it perpetuates the same behavioral patterns over and over), I felt like my mind requires some masala to overcome the dizziness caused by the book. So browsed some books on flipkart and ordered the book “Losing My Virginity and Other Dumb Ideas”. This Book is basically about a woman (KAVERI) who on her 30 th birthday decides to de-virginize herself and her journey in finding great love (some non sense). Non sense because the journey should always be inward not outward. You can’t find great love outside. It is all inside. More than the protagonist in the book, I liked her friend Aditi more. Aditi is a woman who thinks if men are not worthy enough of having a relationship at least use them. So she keeps on having sex with Men and gets gifts from them and exchanges the gifts in the stores if any of t...

Finally the journey of learning how to swim comes to an end. It has been a quite exhilarating experience in last two and half months. The journey from a dumb swimmer to a template swimmer is enthralling. Though I love to continue to swim daily the motivation to do so is not there. My trainer had taught me all that he knows: free style swimming, back stroke swimming, under water swimming and lifeguard training (this is basically how to save somebody when they fell into the water). Now it will be just a maintenance work going to the pool again. There is no learning anymore at least from my trainer. Born and bought up in a desert, I always wanted to learn swimming and never in my life had I taken a step towards learning it. Every time I go to a beach or to any river side, I envy watching my friends do the swimming. Every time I ask them to teach they will hold my hands and ask me to kick my legs and after 5 to 10 minutes, we will be out of water and the story repeats when I enter ...