It's not money but U

Money, this is the thing which is my weakness. Money this is the thing which is controlling me. After 21 years of my life in the battle between me and the money I still need to win in the race. There is a progress in me now but still how many years it take to win over the money is a million dollar question?There is a incident in my life from which money took a higher seat. During my sixth class holidays I used to attend a special mathematics class at my school which is three kilometers away from my home. To go to school the only transport is through a bus which costs a rupee to go to school or else we must go either by cycle or by walk. Since I have not had a cycle I used to go by bus. I wanted to buy a hand videogame which costs around Rupees 270 and my father told that he can’t buy it to me. So I thought I must earn that money by saving it. In order to save the money I need to walk from the school to my home for saving that one rupee. I have done it all through my holidays some times walking both to and fro but most of times it is return journey. After a few months I some how managed that amount after seeing that complete amount I am not able to afford it to buy a hand videogame. I gave that money to my father and told him to do a fixed deposit in the bank. My father added another 100 rupees and made a fixed deposit but after some time I forgot about that money. The thing here is what have I done I have saved the money for a purpose of buying a videogame but when I saw the complete amount I thought of suppressing my desire and wanted the money to be saved. From this point the money has taken control over me and at a point I became a slave of it ( really it is true, I used to skip the food for saving money ,I used to do fasting in order to save money, I used to wear unsophisticated attire and material in order to save money, I used to walk a lot distances in order to save money, I used to stand in a fully crowded railway compartment for some hours in order to save money, I used to avoid going outings in my junior college in order to save money, I avoided an engineering seat in my cousin’s college in order to save money and I struggled like anything in my first two years of engineering simply to save money,I used to suffer myself in order to save the money).If you give preference to MONEY it will make you a MON’K’EY and move you like anything. MONEY MONEY and MONEY ……………………………and it all about money………………….. and really speaking, money would not give you happiness but it may give you relief.

However by the end of my first semester in the final year of engineering I realized that it is the time and energy in us which are important. I started spending money some what liberally (and I am sure that I am not wasting it and moreover I am thinking before spending it). Some interesting thing here is that the money I mentioned in the top of the above passage to that of the money I am spending now that is (in my engineering final year) has some difference in it. The money in the top of the above passage is the money I earned it (by walking) and the money I am spending is the money earned my father. Now I am feeling a little bit nervous because Can I spent the amount I am going to earn is a big question here? Frankly speaking I am matured now. The maturity has attained through my experiences and through the knowledge I have obtained until now. One final thing is that it is not the MONEY but it is “YOU” who are responsible for your happiness because it is our thinking (some people call it as attitude) which is attending to a problem that is important.