Tragedy

Honestly speaking I do not like comfortable life. It makes me sick and lower my sprites and life energies. That is the reason I keep on doing one thing or the other. But I came to a point in my life that the longing to have larger slice of life has reached its peak and whatever I am doing is not making me satisfy that hunger and there is always some sense of inefficiency in my life. I do not know what to do from now on. This made me completely dejected, demotivated, demoralized,depress and all the other de words. I am rippling over this because I do not have the words to explain the intensity in which I am suffering. That is the reason I want Tragedy in my life. The tragedy which will make me lose myself.

I googled for examples but could not able to find one. There is a lot of help in the world for the people who want to come out of tragedy but none for the people who wants tragedy. This is even more frustrating .Damn even the internet can’t help me. Spoke to couple of friends but could not find any help. All my friends either kiddos or dumb ass holes or both. Then read that the Rockstar movie has same theme so what will that help me? Do not know will watch definitely. Meanwhile I called my mentor and he came over to meet me and spent almost one and half hours in discussing.Damn his questions are hurting at the same time provoking my thoughts.

PS: It requires utmost patience to live life

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