MY EYES


I strongly believe a person’s eyes speaks volumes about what the person is inside at any specific point of time than anything else. One can act or fake facial expressions or master body language skills but never can modify what is there in the eyes as it reflects what is inside. I generally look at eyes to gauge what a person is.

I stopped looking into my eyes 3 to 4 years back as I could not able to take what is inside me. But last week I was just contemplating on a random thought by looking at the mirror and ended up observing my eyes. I was surprised. My eyes are very clear and have life. I could able to see some spark /twinkle in them may be due to child like innocence, which I brought back into my life.

I really savoured that momemt. I gave some time to digest. Honestly I am a dead person 4 years back. There used to be not even single trace of enthusiam in life. It was only fear and irrational male pride that used to rule my life. Now I can see myself as a completely different person.  I attribute this radical change in me for having severe emotional, economical and psychological failures in my life. All these failures removed unessential non-sense I gathered in my life.  I can still remember the days where I enjoyed after liberating from long lasting entanglements either in the form of   beliefs or in the form of self inflicted borders I had drawn to myself or forcibly rubbed on to me by the society. When one realizes the heavy burden one is carrying on one’s shoulder is not real it is self created and when one breaks it consciously, the after experience is called “FREEDOM.” It is amazing thing .I cannot explain it in words.

Today there is definitely enthusiam in my life. Though at times I face rough days and get irritated. Over all I have "LIFE" in my life. Not sure how many days I could maintain this but I am glad today.

PS: Finally physical justification to my blog title “EYES WITH FIRE CAN SEE LIGHT EVERYWHERE” :) Hurray.

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