Why look back?

I am scared of my past. Not that I do not have any good memories. Thinking about my past makes me vulnerable. I agree that Who we are today is the outcome of our past. But I do not like to peak into it every now and then since

It has become new and different.
It's not the part that belongs to me anymore.
It left me.

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